The smile that keeps me going

Lately I've been pretty discouraged about my lack of energy. (This is why it's been so long since I've posted anything on my blog.) I'm kind of wondering why God gave me a baby but didn't give me the energy to take care of her. She's a pretty easy baby to take care of, but I feel awful lying on the couch so much of the time while she plays by herself. Thankfully, she just learned to walk by herself about ten days ago, so she's not constantly asking to hold onto me to help her walk. Today she is fourteen months old. Her smiles are all I have to keep me going right now. In this picture, she is having fun playing peek-abo0 with her daddy.

Last week my ob/gyn got some test results back that indicate I have extremely high levels of antibodies to the Epstein-Barr virus, which is associated with chronic fatigue syndrome. Apparently there's not much you can do to treat it...you just have to wait for it to run it's course, which can take months. My endocrinologist has also ordered some lab work to test my adrenal function, which I am convinced is too low. Adrenal fatigue is treatable, but not many doctors (including mine) have much experience with it; and the treatment is multi-faceted, takes a long time, and will be complicated by my already-existing diabetes and hypothyroidism, which, by the way, are under the best control they have been since my pre-pregnancy days, but still not where they should be. Please pray for me as I struggle daily not to be bitter about my multiple health problems, and for wisdom as I contemplate seeing a very knowlegable but very expensive holistic doctor who does not take any insurance (because he finds it is too limiting in how he can help his patients).